This is, in general, a healthy attitude to have in life! I've said similar things about my stormy long-term relationship with my first boyfriend (I would never have moved to NYC in the 1990s if not for him), and about my love/hate attitude towards Catholicism and Christianity.
By the way, I didn't leave Christianity because the Catholic church says that gay people are sinners. I left because I ultimately decided that the "redemptive sacrifice" and "substitutionary atonement" narrative is logically impossible to reconcile with monotheism.
I have since changed my opinion slightly -- I now admit that the Death and Resurrection of Christ could total make sense if one assumes that it was essentially a Broadway show produced, written, and directed by God -- and that Jesus and Judas and Pilate and Satan were all actors contracted by God to perform roles authored by God, the playwright. Which is to say, in particular, that Satan and Judas were only pretending to hate Jesus, in the same way that Gene Hackman (as Lex Luthor) pretended to hate Christopher Reeve (as Superman). In other words, the world's first "Passion Play" was the Passion itself.
Сказка ложь, да в ней намек!
Добрым молодцам урок.
PS. Is there a way to make large, annoying images display at thumbnail size in the MR version of BBCode? (I know how to do it in HTML.)