I don't think his poems are that difficult. I dont get everything he wrote because I dont understand the language that well yet. But I do get a lot of what he was saying and the more poems I read, the more I understand them.
It's like the Mirror of Erised in the Harry Potter movies when Dumbledore said, "It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live.". I think he just got all caught up in dreams he knew couldn't come true and finally just gave up. I do know that when I don't win or I just quit then life doesn't look good. It's a very important time when people have to start over, even if they have to try something new.
There wasn't any ink in his room so he used his own blood. I think if he had refused to write and found a way to get that ink that he wanted, I don't think he woulda offed himself. When people are still fighting to find ways to win then the world still looks good.
It was a huge loss when he died. He had an amazing writing style. He could use words and metaphors to paint brilliant pictures of life. But people have to experience life to write about it and that can't just be about being young and having dreams. Every part of life is probably as awesome as being young when people are working, learning, and experiencing new things to write about. So maybe it's better if writing is only a hobby. That way writers can have a lot more to write about and not only dreams.