Bloody FSB/KGB, blah, blah... I'm not even going to discuss it. Also I feel sorry for you.

Btw, German intelligence estimates the number of victims in Ukrainian civil war as 50 000. In comparison, the number of Soviet citizens who died in Afganistan war is about 15 000 in 10 years.

Ukraine: Sicherheitskreise: Bis zu 50.000 Tote - Ausland - FAZ