Hanna, there is no self hatred. Disillusion, irritation, apathy - most frequently people feel them. I'd subscribe to most of your statements but not to:
Russia went after the Olympics, organised the grandest Eurovision ever, extravagant 9 May celebrations
"Не с того конца взялись." Even excellent run Olympics will be over soon, and what I would really like to happen: visiting some backwoods of some foreign territory, I don't want to sigh: "This is how life can look like!" and then would be no inevitable return to stinking подъезд, dark destructed sidewalks, crumbling marshrutkas, surrendered medical care.