I remember now. Something about believing in the spark which could set a fire and make the society a better world. I'm probably way too cynical to share that view however noble that might seem.
Yes, I got that too. You feel synergy when you connect with your nation. That's a good feeling, but the thing is that some people have a certain experience in life and they are disillusioned. I don't think you can blame them too.
That would be way too cool had it been tried by the history and worked. Unfortunately, the history shows not once and not twice that the grandchildren could be going to fight and die for a country which formed by killing their grandparents and taking their land into the larger formation which would be considered the new Motherland from now on. And those who would disagree with that would be killed or enslaved. Sad but true.
I'm pretty sure I hear sarcasm in your voice, because otherwise (as someone who spent some time with the assault rifle) I can assure you there's not a single thing in the world which is more useless and evil than that. And 'evil' in the meaning of 'destructive' (as opposed to 'good' meaning constructive or creative). And please don't ask me for details. Whatever creative you're doing in your life is good and whatever destructive is bad. Teaching somebody else the rules is good as long as it's creative. But teaching somebody else the rules with the assault rifle is bad as you will only teach them the hatred, which would lead to another destruction. That is one of my principles in life.