Thread: translate please

can anyone help me? i tried to translate it myself but i'm having no luck at all.

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Za oknom liven'.....v dushe liven'.....i plakat' xochetsya........i pokruvat' matom xochetsya....navernoe nado otoidti ot vsego....uspokoitsya.....zalizat' ranu i obidu.... ya vse sebya vinu..... da v luboi ssore dvoe vinovatu.....s pyatnizu pochti nichego ne ela.....esli ne schitat' 4 quesedillas' kotorue buli s'edenu v dalekom Mineapolise...to ya nichego ne ela s pyatnizu..... mne dazhe i ne xochetsya est'....dazhe i ne dumau ob etom....dumau o drugom....o tom kak vse poluchilos'.....o tom....kak vse skatilos' k edrenoi materi.... da....otoidi nado.... heh....i samoe glavnoe ved'...nikto vot eto ne poimet. Inogda ya rada chto govoru bol'she chem na odnom yazike. A inogda zhaleu chto ne vse moi druz'ya govoryat na russkom, ili na ivrite. Bol'no....Obidno....Bol'no.....ya tol'ko nadeus chto kogda nibud' mu taki da smozhem eto zabut'... Obe storonu, u menya svoi obidu.....u drugoi storonu svoi obidu i prochee.... Vse nastol'ko besmuslenoe seichas i nadoevshee......podxozhu k komputeru......i blevat' xochetsya.....dazhe LJ ne xochu chitat'.... To chto ran'she prinosilo emozii....seichas nichego ne prinosit'.....ravnodushna.....nadeus' chto eto budet ne dolgo i skoro ya smogu govorit' bez togo chto bu s'exidnichat'....

ushlo ya
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thanks.

Hmm

Outside there is a downpour... in the shower there is a downpour... and I feel like crying... and I feel like cursing... Probably need to get away from everything... to calm down... lick the wounds and insults... I am to blame in all... yes it takes two to quarrel in any case.... since friday I have eaten almost nothing... if not counting 4 quesdillas which were eaten in the far away Minneapolis... then I haven't eaten anything since friday... I don't even feel like eating... I don't even think about it... thinking about something else... about how everything happened... about that... how everthing rolled to (something rude here)... yes... I need to get away... heh... you see the most important thing is... nobody will understand. Sometimes I am happy that I speak more than one language. And sometimes I wish that not all my friends speak russian, or yiddish(?). It hurts... it's insultive... it hurts... I only hope that sometime we manage to forget this... both sides, I have my insults... on the other side my insults are simpler.... There is so much senslessness and being fed up... I approach the computer... and I feel like vomiting... i don't even want to read LJ... it used to bring emotions to me... now nothing brings anything... I don't care... I hope this is not for long and that I soon can talk without making sptifeul remarks...

I left

kalinka_vinnie, it was great.

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in the shower there is a downpour...

in the soul - в душе - makes more sense here

A inogda zhaleu chto ne vse moi druz'ya govoryat na russkom, ili na ivrite.
And sometimes I wish that not all my friends speak russian, or yiddish(?).

Sometimes I feel sorry that not all my friends speak Russian or Hebrew.

Oh , I guess that does make a difference... oops! Thnxs

how would you say "in the shower" vs "in the soul"? You just saw it in context?

Depends on the accent.

in the shower = в душе
in the soul = в душе

For all Russian learners: if you have a choice between the soul and the hygiene - go with the soul

Thanks for the help