No, in fact I'm simply content to assume that maybe we'll eventually figure it out. I don't see it as a matter of random chance vs. conscious will, although Occam's Razor tells me that if it's between these two then random chance wins hands down because random chance as a cause is less incredible than an uncaused sentient cause. But it's like with the theory of gravity. You open your hand, and it's neither the effect of random chance nor of your conscious will that what you held falls down. You can't, for example, make it fall up. Gravity is there, it works, it's not random at all but not the product of a will either (unless by extension you make it part of the Big Bold Concept underlying the universe, which then would make everything including other religions and atheists the product of the selfsame will).

Actually I do entertain certain metaphysical ideas and beliefs, but I never treat them as if they were more than that. I concede that they may be wrong. Belief is what you need if you don't have any evidence. More valuable to me are interpretations of evidence which yield a theory when rationally analysed, and even better are hard and incontrovertible facts.

People frequently mistake belief for facts. It's much like prejudice in that way. Many people here in Western Europe used to know all kinds of "facts" about Russians during the Cold War, like "they eat babies" and so on. Prejudice and stereotypes kick in where facts and evidence are missing, and that's never very useful. But looking at the evidence natural science and historical research present me with, I see no place where the gods of any known religions still find a nook to exist. Yes, the universe might turn out to be the product of something divine, maybe even a will and a plan, but all religions are purely man-made, and were usually incepted or at least quickly perverted to be tools to dominate and subjugate, to direct hate at others and to generally cause untold woe. It may be different for the individual believer, but organized religion is just a power game.